Slow.

Suddenly, my life is edited by the Exucutive Director.
The movie of my life story is suddenly in slow-mo.
I simply hate,wad the x-ray resut said.
C'mon,now tell me how um i suppose to do stuffs?HOW?
sigh...

Gigs cumin up...tell me how to go thru all this?
n not only that.... its basically everythin.

Everything IS changin.

I.... Hate the change.definitely.

News @ 10

Im not workin today.
Not because im lazy.
Not because im gonna haf fun out in the sun.
Not because im gonna sleep my day thru'.
IM not workin becoz i injure my troubling spine again while jogging last sunday n today is gonna be the day where im gonna spend HUNDREDS of dollars just to so call repair it.oh my....
ok i wanna tell u more on wads happenin or rather,wads been happenin since january.
but... i cant find the right time to post that long long blog.

False Pause,
Inside the 6...theres alot to say bout 'em.
ok we won a few comps n lose some too.
we had fun n laugh alot,always.
oh yes...we receive a damn gd news finally.(ya guys noe bout it.let's celebrate soon)

Oh Yes,my beautiful fiance turned 24 last saturday.
ya know she meant the world to me.
i wish i can earn more to make our lives better.
i love u mama.

ok wait up for the next one.
gonna say more.
im getin ready to see another doctor .

feccuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu! (not)

ian

p.a.i.n

Ok...
How wud chu feel,
If,
u cant stand up straight,
u cant lie down straight,
u cant move as fast as usual,
u must stop walkin for every like 15 steps u take,
u haf difficulty sittin down for too long,
u haf difficulty standin up after sittin down for too long,
u haf stupid ppl around you when u are goin thru all this.

Ya know,in life,things like this happens all the time BUT for others,it happens rarely.
For me.im livin with it,for 9 years olready and countin.

i might just miss the day ive been lookin forward to.

*walkin away,slowly.

ian

Been soooo LONG!

Ahuh!

its been ages.hello=)
well the last post....i cant remember when.
ok,actually i dun wanna say much now coz....sumthin struck me right down there(at the back)n i so dunn wanna update the "Happenins" now.
Maybe tmrw.
MAYBE i say.
Theres alot to say.n i mean alot!
Like family stuffs,the click stuffs,the band stuffs hmmm...the band stuffs,the beautiful lady in ma life stuff,the stuff,stuff.
Yup.tmrw k?k?k?ca
ok.
Now,its only 2221hrs BUT i wanna go slp coz, HERE COMES THE PAIN!

Fecuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!!!!

ian

Pssssst...

Last post -17th July 2008.
Now - 5th January 2009.

IN ther ferst place,ive never,ever, thot of bloggin.
Like,i dunnoe y i even haf this blogspot now.

ok updates...

bestfrens gettin engaged,(congrats Amat & cass,Fai n ejah)
hmmmm.... got relatives passed on....(Condolences to the family)
hmmm.... Happy birthday to all who had just celebrated their b'days OH n also, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my Robotic Fren, Fahmi Botak The Abang Besi..Today is your day!
hmmm... im now 97.5kg...Fat huh?...im like 2.5kg away from the big 100 dood.
and as my body gets heavier,im gettin slower...
and like healthy level gettin low...
and that "sumthing-wrong-down-there-at-the-spine"...is gettin no where better.
lalaala...ya ya ya...

ok...New year's resolution.
i wanna be 80kg by 11th May 2009.
i wanna smoke less...(not)
i wanna eat less rice...
i wanna drink more plain water...
i wanna start playin football again...
i wanna compose more songs....
i wanna bring my fiance out more often...
i wanna hmmm.....

ok other updates...
My band...False Pause,is doin pretty well...we haf 2 comps n 3 gigs for the month of January n February 2009.
y'day, 04.01.09 was the auditions of Talentquest '09.
i think it went pretty well...if we dun get any further,stagewise, i guess it must be the music.other than dat,i hope we get to rock the finals @ ROCK Auditorium @ Suntec.

Erfie,Fahmi,Ashek,Firdaus,Wan...oh thats my bandmates from False Pause.
Mamat,Nizam,Nadia,Liza.... i wonder how they are doin now...
Mama just got back from Mekkah n she is doin all fine alhamdulillah...
Ah2 started 2009 with 2 bangs(heheheh)
Andri is now in sec 3(long pants)
Zaki is in primary 6 (PSLE!!!)
Sofea is in primary 4...
n so is natasha...
nadia is in primary 2...
ayumi is in kindergarten...
n finally....daniel is in pre-school....
ALL in School.
mummy is healthy alhamdulilah...
hafez,when u n ida gettin engaged?
Gaza is a battleground.bombmings everywhere as i speak...
i never turn up for football(field ) for 3 weeks olready.
im turnin up for football (court) today.
im wearin Tommy Freedom for women's perfume today.
today,i miss my fiance more than every other day,i dunnoe y...
i heard my dad's voice reciting some prayers while im gettin ready to go out to work last week.
kinda freak me out for abit but i later found out that mummy was playin a recorded cd of my dad's.
i got ipod video which i kinda like see no diff with my previous ipod nano.
dont ask me why ive been wearin specs.
JOe jambul is suddenly re-incarnatin.
my laptop crashed on 0ct ' 08.
now its back n is heavily at work.
i got a crumpler to replace my torn bag.
i got a new pair shoe after so many years.
oh,thak you Cotton On for a splendid sale =)
i really hated work.
n i mean i really HATE the farkin job.
i am serious.
Firdaus,i wonder y u always laugh at stupid jokes.
but dun stop.
my fiance gettin prettier by the day... =)
she always "gelek" in front of me nowadays...
oh..i went for my first ICT in Oct '08.
my tummy is bigger than ever.
im tired...
im tired...
sumthin is kinda different...

ian 05.01.09 @ 1003am

Pssst...

Hey ppl,i will update again...soonest.
Alot of things has been happenin' n i juz cant find the tyme to blog.omg im bloggin???
hahahah
ok.
Daddy,where r u?Havent seen u in ma dreams fer soooooo long???
Tonyte ya???



*Fecoooooooooooooooooooo!

My name is ian....Alfian

That mixed feelin...

Hey Hey!
Im goin home in a few minutes time now to start my long weekend with bandmates,frens n family to celebrate my a-quarter-century bday at ma chalet.
So ya.i got nuthin to say.but...
That mixed feelin of joy...sadness...all come toegether suddenly n i just remembered sumthin...
2 yrs ago...at the stroke of midnyte,while receivin well wishes sms(s),i was strummin my guitar playin the song "Happy Birthday" n singin it to maself when after a few repetitions of the line "Happy Birthday To You", my dad....sang it to me like he always does on every of ma b'dae.
I heard him sing to me "Happy Birthday to you".n suddenly his face kinda like flashed in front of me with a smile.
That was the best birthday gift i got since the day he left us.
As soon as i started to weep,his face was gone.
Maybe he dun want me to....
Maybe he want me to enjoy my birthday every year.
But its so hard...
As im typin this,i kinda feel like he's near to me watchin me type so fast to whatever heartfelt...
Daddy, i miss u....
Mummy,Happy Birthday!

=)

Ian